try blogging again

It's December 29th, 2011. One of the things I would like to do in the upcoming year is blog again. I haven’t been very good at it lately. I’m not sure why – maybe because I’ve been making updates in facebook. But I get the feeling that I am one of those annoying people that post way too much on facebook so I will try to post mainly here and less on facebook (except to respond to others).

So.. to bring you up to speed. Things here are relatively good. I’ve been feeling depressed lately though. Not exactly sure why. Could be…. my weight, money issues, Kenz’s social struggles, or Seb’s constant challenges at school. But to be honest, normally those things wouldn’t bring me down as much as I am…. I truly think that I have major depression issue. But last time I talked to my doctor about it she prescribed me some different medication and I cried for 3 weeks until I stopped taking the new meds.

So…. I am hoping that 2012 is a great year and a turning point. Here are a few things I would like to accomplish over the next year.

1. Get my depression under control – beat it.
2. Lose weight so that I am a “healthy” weight.
3. Become a stricter, more consistent parent.
4. Spend more time with CJ (just him and me).
5. Give the kids healthier meals.
6. Spend more time with the kids just playing.
7. Get our financial situation in order so I don’t stress so much about money.

I also want to focus more on the things that I am lucky to have and less on things that shouldn’t matter so much. So, to start, here is a list of things I am grateful for.

1. A wonderful loving husband.
2. Two great kids who are kind, loving, smart, funny and healthy.
3. A job that I enjoy with people I like and respect.
4. An extended family that is kind and loving.
5. A beautiful house that keep us warm and dry and comfortable and safe.
6. Wonderful friends.

That’s it for today….. Here’s to a great 2012!