stressed and bitchy

Do you ever feel just really restless and antsy? That’s how I have been lately. I’ve been having a really hard time concentrating on work and when I am home I feel really “scattered”. It’s almost like I am waiting for something to happen. It’s killing me to sit in my chair at work and try to get stuff done. I feel like I am missing out of something. I think it’s socializing. I think I am going through “girlfriend happy hour withdrawal”. Seriously. What I need is a good 2 or 3 hours out with my girlfriends (you know who you are – Karen, Hadley, Dawn, Sam, Rachel, Bila, Deb) to shoot the shit, gossip, gab, bitch about work and taking care of kids etc. I think that would put everything in my life back into balance.

So, ladies – anyone want to come to Toronto and visit me?

Oh yeah –and our house is a pig sty. I’m sure that is adding to my anxiety. I just can’t bring myself to clean it. Our dining room table is covered in clean laundry that I don’t feel like putting away. The floor needs to be swept and swiftered. But what is the point when the kids will dirty it up again within seconds.

I am tired of my kids being so emotional. Seriously. I never know what is going to set them off. And if I hear any more whining I think I am going to explode. I swear – there is something about the tone or pitch of the whining sound that triggers some sort of brain chemical related to anxiety. My heart rate is increasing just as I think about it.

Okay so enough bitching. I am going to focus on some good things.

Tomorrow is Friday and I will have the afternoon off. I will go to curves or play squash with Andrea to work off some of this restlessness. On Saturday I am going to an all day crop with Vikki and Jacquie. That should be fun since I haven’t done any scrapbooking in about 3 months – since the NC ladies came to visit. I am going to put some pages together for spring, summer, camping and other various random events of teh last few months.

My mum is coming back next Tuesday. I actually missed her a lot. She’s been gone for almost a month and I will be glad when she’s back.

And next Friday my friend Nikki is coming for a visit – YAY! We are going to do an “urban photography” shoot with the kids on Queen St. West. I think that will be a lot of fun!